I'm so tired right now that it does not justice to me that I still have New Year clothes to get, baby Samuel's new bag and also a to-do lists full with house chores. Oh yeah, and helping father at his shop today. I FELT LIKE DYING.
everything is so tied up right now that I felt like dying. :(
and I miss her. I really do. It's just that I don't know what is she thinking about. If you have nothing towards me, don't show your overly overpowered signs. I would mistaken that for that. :( Yet I don't dare to ask for the truth.
Why am I such a coward?
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Fate Behold Us
Wanted to write about a new chapter of my life yet decided to dwell on this particular scenario that has been in my life dangling around for way too long.
This new phase of life is again yet connected to her.
She message me at night asking am I sleep, I was happy thinking maybe there was something that I wanted to hear would be spill out from her. I've got my guessing wrong in fact she just ask me to go to her office for an interview. A job was introduce to me, I was declining it very hard at first, because first I don't think I'm capable for the job, it's not my passion either, and the second reason was because it would have meant to be in the same company with her. I was reluctant.
Yet in the end, I was offered the job. Not only was I offered the job, I was place in the same floor as her and the person that hire me, so happen sat opposite her. Yes, the world is very very small.
What makes it more peculiar was that even though I was at the same floor with her for about four days now, we haven't met each other. Yes, i think we did change eye contact but don't know why. Both of us didn't take the first move to do the handshake thing. I just don't know what's wrong. Was it that she's thinking I'm not pretty thus avoiding the contact. or she really didn't saw?
She didn't initiate lunch time together either, maybe she was just busy was what I could think of. Each time I thought that she was not willing to care for me, she gives me that small sweet to make me go all goo-gaagaa for her.
I'm tired, seriously. We haven't met before, now even we're in the same company yet we haven't met before either. Just feeling sad, like what are we? I've sat on her chair, on her table and maybe even use the same toilet cubicle. WTF
the care she shower for me was unconditional. first day I was in the company for less than 2 hours, she already ask me how was my day. Then off and on she showed me her care. I just don't know.
Am I thinking too much? or there was still something in us?
We haven't met, yet we've known each other for almost 9 years now. Sigh.. what have fate behold us?
This new phase of life is again yet connected to her.
She message me at night asking am I sleep, I was happy thinking maybe there was something that I wanted to hear would be spill out from her. I've got my guessing wrong in fact she just ask me to go to her office for an interview. A job was introduce to me, I was declining it very hard at first, because first I don't think I'm capable for the job, it's not my passion either, and the second reason was because it would have meant to be in the same company with her. I was reluctant.
Yet in the end, I was offered the job. Not only was I offered the job, I was place in the same floor as her and the person that hire me, so happen sat opposite her. Yes, the world is very very small.
What makes it more peculiar was that even though I was at the same floor with her for about four days now, we haven't met each other. Yes, i think we did change eye contact but don't know why. Both of us didn't take the first move to do the handshake thing. I just don't know what's wrong. Was it that she's thinking I'm not pretty thus avoiding the contact. or she really didn't saw?
She didn't initiate lunch time together either, maybe she was just busy was what I could think of. Each time I thought that she was not willing to care for me, she gives me that small sweet to make me go all goo-gaagaa for her.
I'm tired, seriously. We haven't met before, now even we're in the same company yet we haven't met before either. Just feeling sad, like what are we? I've sat on her chair, on her table and maybe even use the same toilet cubicle. WTF
the care she shower for me was unconditional. first day I was in the company for less than 2 hours, she already ask me how was my day. Then off and on she showed me her care. I just don't know.
Am I thinking too much? or there was still something in us?
We haven't met, yet we've known each other for almost 9 years now. Sigh.. what have fate behold us?
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